You need a kick in the tits. Seriously - pick yourself up, get back to the gym, put the carbs down, get back to work, get your mind focused again. WTF is wrong with you. Enough. Here's your kick in the tits.
This am I finally got back to http://www.healthworks.com/ - and, naturally, felt a billion times better. I don't know WHY I fall off the wagon like I do. But I do.
I have a few expiring groupons for http://www.baptisteyoga.com/ - so am planning on using them and sweating my vagina out. Maybe I'll get some clarity?
I just fell off the wagon. Good news? Only for 1.5 weeks. Bad news? WAAAHHHH why??
I had started a weight loss plan that included calorie counting, weighing 1x/week, exercising 7x/week, journaling (meaning - write down 5 things I'm proud of and 5 things I'm thankful for). It worked. Plain and simple, worked.
I so wish I could be one of those people not obsessed with weight. But I am not. And I so wish my stupid slow metabolism would speed itself up, so I can enjoy the foods that I love. But - unless I take drugs (no), it won't.
I've said time and time again - at this point, it's for health reasons. I have not had a health scare but frankly, being obese is a risk factor and I want to get out of the danger zone.
Anyone with me?
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Wahhhhhhhh
UGH - I DID fall off the wagon! Boo! Wah!!! I don't know what it is, when I'm thrown off course (my mom's visit - which was perfect fun) - it just does me in. No gym. No dieting. Eating whatever I want. Up 6 POUNDS! WAH!!!!!
Okay - pity party is over. I know what I need to do.
Okay - pity party is over. I know what I need to do.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Update..Feeling good
Wowzers - am I feeling great! I haven't eaten any dairy and no alcohol since getting sick - except for a sneaky soft serve ice cream cone, since I'm NEVER around soft serve (no stomach ache - hooray!) - and man do I feel amazing. I have a love/hate relationship with this fact - since - I love my cheese, but have always thought dairy may be a culprit to my weight loss, as well as acne (I've been told that I have a slight allergy to dairy by doctors and dermatologists). I've replaced ice cream with frozen fruit bars, have been snacking on fruit like a mad woman, eaten tons and tons of tomatoes (I know, sounds weird, I love summer tomatoes), and I just feel great.
That's the good news. The downside? I've been sitting home by myself this whole time since I don't want to have any alcohol. I was supposed to have dinner w/a pregnant friend on Friday, which I thought would work out well since I wouldn't drink but we cancelled. I've been also having some issues with a former friend (mainly that since I'm not married with kids she wants nothing to do with me). But - through it all, I have not emotionally ate or drank.
Randomly, my mom has decided to visit next week for a few days. She does this every summer, she'll decide she misses me and wants to visit. I booked some massage appointments to surprise her with, we'll have dinner w/a friend of mine on Mon. and maybe hit the beach on Tuesday.
There will be wine. There will be dinners out. There will be mom-stress. There will be food obsession. But I am DETERMINED to not let this throw me off. Luckily, along with her obsession with food, there is an obsession with the gym, so she wants to hit up Healthworks with me while she's here (she loves spinning). But normally, family throws me off. I had been doing SO SO SO well - except for me there's no balance, either I'm doing great but also sitting home watching movies and going to the gym (I did hit the gym yesterday hooray! On a Saturday!) - or I'm drinking wine by the bottle, dessert by the plateful, and 8 course meals.
So - there will be balance. I haven't had time to stress about my mom's visit since it was kind of sprung on me. I was going to do a little 2 week alcohol detox, which looks like it will only be 1 week (since, with my mom, there WILL be wine). But - I also won't drink too much with her here, so I'm okay with that. Left to my own devices, I tend to over-imbibe.
We shall see. Now I sort of wish I had kept my weigh in day for Monday! Ironically, this week. I weighed myself this morning and was down about 1/2 pound - so that's good.
Dertermined to keep it balanced....
That's the good news. The downside? I've been sitting home by myself this whole time since I don't want to have any alcohol. I was supposed to have dinner w/a pregnant friend on Friday, which I thought would work out well since I wouldn't drink but we cancelled. I've been also having some issues with a former friend (mainly that since I'm not married with kids she wants nothing to do with me). But - through it all, I have not emotionally ate or drank.
Randomly, my mom has decided to visit next week for a few days. She does this every summer, she'll decide she misses me and wants to visit. I booked some massage appointments to surprise her with, we'll have dinner w/a friend of mine on Mon. and maybe hit the beach on Tuesday.
There will be wine. There will be dinners out. There will be mom-stress. There will be food obsession. But I am DETERMINED to not let this throw me off. Luckily, along with her obsession with food, there is an obsession with the gym, so she wants to hit up Healthworks with me while she's here (she loves spinning). But normally, family throws me off. I had been doing SO SO SO well - except for me there's no balance, either I'm doing great but also sitting home watching movies and going to the gym (I did hit the gym yesterday hooray! On a Saturday!) - or I'm drinking wine by the bottle, dessert by the plateful, and 8 course meals.
So - there will be balance. I haven't had time to stress about my mom's visit since it was kind of sprung on me. I was going to do a little 2 week alcohol detox, which looks like it will only be 1 week (since, with my mom, there WILL be wine). But - I also won't drink too much with her here, so I'm okay with that. Left to my own devices, I tend to over-imbibe.
We shall see. Now I sort of wish I had kept my weigh in day for Monday! Ironically, this week. I weighed myself this morning and was down about 1/2 pound - so that's good.
Dertermined to keep it balanced....
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Hooray - almost 2 lbs gone!
But - was it the fact that I spent the majority of the week shitting like crazy? Maybe - hey - I'll take it! 205.2 - so - lots more to go, but I'll take the progress.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Bucket List
In spinning this morning the instructor asked us what's on our bucket list. He is always inspirational - it's a great way to start the day - so that was his question today. Thought I'd throw it out there. After thinking about it, here's what I have come up with:
Run a 1/2 marathon.
Earn $1M in one year.
Make a $10K donation somewhere.
Donate hair to locks of love.
Lose 80lbs.
Write a book.
Buy a beach house.
Buy a 5 room home - with a gym, library, guest room, office, my bedroom - w/a HUGE en suite bathroom.
Read the Howard Zinn book.
Read every book on my list.
Teach a class (in anything).
Invest in a company (not just stocks).
Win an award.
Take a pole dancing class.
Go cross country.
Here are things on my list that I have done:
Start a business.
Go to the World Series.
Get season Sox tickets.
Go paragluiding.
Go parasailing.
Take a hot yoga class.
Start a blog (hi!).
Live in a foreign country.
Backpack around Europe.
Any readers out there want to comment?
Run a 1/2 marathon.
Earn $1M in one year.
Make a $10K donation somewhere.
Donate hair to locks of love.
Lose 80lbs.
Write a book.
Buy a beach house.
Buy a 5 room home - with a gym, library, guest room, office, my bedroom - w/a HUGE en suite bathroom.
Read the Howard Zinn book.
Read every book on my list.
Teach a class (in anything).
Invest in a company (not just stocks).
Win an award.
Take a pole dancing class.
Go cross country.
Here are things on my list that I have done:
Start a business.
Go to the World Series.
Get season Sox tickets.
Go paragluiding.
Go parasailing.
Take a hot yoga class.
Start a blog (hi!).
Live in a foreign country.
Backpack around Europe.
Any readers out there want to comment?
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Letter to me. From my stomach.
Dear you:
You got cocky last night, at book club, didn't you. I didn't ache once during the day, so you went ahead and had some cheese and crackers. You know that cheese is probably something to stay away from on a good day, but you went ahead and tested me. And - I was kind. So you had more. And I remained kind. You were pacing yourself, and I was happy that you skipped the wine (for once!). We were doing okay.
Did you really need to plop a bunch of brie on your salad? Did you really need to dominate the tomato mozz. - emphasize on the mozz? Was it completely necessary? Couldn't you have just remained - kind and thoughful of me?
So yes - when you opted for the blueberry cobbler - WITH whipped cream (seriously??) - I rebelled. Enough. Stop eating like you are a horse. You're going to have way more embarassing bathroom situations than you did last night if you don't. You are not a horse, nor a pig. You are a person. A person with a weakening belly. So stop. Or else you'll be shitting yourself on the side of the road somewhere.
Sincerely, your belly.
You got cocky last night, at book club, didn't you. I didn't ache once during the day, so you went ahead and had some cheese and crackers. You know that cheese is probably something to stay away from on a good day, but you went ahead and tested me. And - I was kind. So you had more. And I remained kind. You were pacing yourself, and I was happy that you skipped the wine (for once!). We were doing okay.
Did you really need to plop a bunch of brie on your salad? Did you really need to dominate the tomato mozz. - emphasize on the mozz? Was it completely necessary? Couldn't you have just remained - kind and thoughful of me?
So yes - when you opted for the blueberry cobbler - WITH whipped cream (seriously??) - I rebelled. Enough. Stop eating like you are a horse. You're going to have way more embarassing bathroom situations than you did last night if you don't. You are not a horse, nor a pig. You are a person. A person with a weakening belly. So stop. Or else you'll be shitting yourself on the side of the road somewhere.
Sincerely, your belly.
Monday, July 18, 2011
I binged...and my body rebelled.
OK truth time - I hit a bump in the road. I binged over the last few days - maybe, in all honesty, starting from Wednesday. I don't really know why - work was going really well and I think it started with, "I'm going to take myself out to celebrate!" Than I fell back into, "I'm going to eat whatever I want and start again on Sunday!". Bad, I know.
But - here's the good news (ironically) - I got REALLY sick. Like - REALLY sick. I'm fairly certain that the Chinese food I binged on may have given me some food poisoning, so I did what all sane people do - I kept eating the leftovers, thinking that wasn't the problem. I'm pretty sure it was, and I spent the last 4 days attached to the toilet.
SO - am not going to forget this. It was awful feeling so sick - I had planned on going to the beach and I couldn't. I couldn't work out. The good news is I probably didn't gain any weight, the better news is - lesson learned. I simply can't eat like that anymore, my body can't do it.
Now - is that what it is? Or was it food poisoning? Who knows. I'm choosing to believe that my body can't do it anymore. I've had food poisoning before, and this felt slightly different (no nausea). So - am going with - I can't do it.
I made myself get up and work out this morning, despite my belly still feeling sad. It was the best thing I could have done. I ran my 2 miles, and felt SO much better.
More news - am not doing the 1/2 marathon. I missed the registration and honestly I think it may have been a bit ambitious for where I'm at with running right now. SO - am doing a 10K instead - October 10.
But - here's the good news (ironically) - I got REALLY sick. Like - REALLY sick. I'm fairly certain that the Chinese food I binged on may have given me some food poisoning, so I did what all sane people do - I kept eating the leftovers, thinking that wasn't the problem. I'm pretty sure it was, and I spent the last 4 days attached to the toilet.
SO - am not going to forget this. It was awful feeling so sick - I had planned on going to the beach and I couldn't. I couldn't work out. The good news is I probably didn't gain any weight, the better news is - lesson learned. I simply can't eat like that anymore, my body can't do it.
Now - is that what it is? Or was it food poisoning? Who knows. I'm choosing to believe that my body can't do it anymore. I've had food poisoning before, and this felt slightly different (no nausea). So - am going with - I can't do it.
I made myself get up and work out this morning, despite my belly still feeling sad. It was the best thing I could have done. I ran my 2 miles, and felt SO much better.
More news - am not doing the 1/2 marathon. I missed the registration and honestly I think it may have been a bit ambitious for where I'm at with running right now. SO - am doing a 10K instead - October 10.
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